Thursday, July 31, 2008

Baby Love

You know, just as a little splurge for myself and to help me hone in on what's really important...

This morning Simon wouldn't sleep. He woke around 2:30 ready to rock 'n roll. He's been doing this lately. It's hard to handle at times since I've gotten used to sleeping more than I did when Jesse was a baby. With Jesse, no one slept. Simon's been decent thus far though so when he stopped sleeping well and started all this night waking it was slightly hard to accept at first.

But I digress. Anyway, after about an hour of nursing, shushing and otherwise trying to get him back to sleep I decided just to enjoy the awake time with him. He does this little soft cooing thing in the mornings and I am able to kiss him softly on his mouth, nose, ears, forehead, eyes, shoulders, wrists, wherever and he lies there silently with his eyes closed, softly smiling and cooing while I just kiss and kiss and kiss. The morning shortly after he's woken for the day is usually the only time I can ever do this. Well, around quarter to four this morning I kissed him since he wasn't going back to sleep and he closed his eyes and laid very still. So I kissed him again and he did his little coo. Oh, the game was on! I kissed and kissed and kissed... and he fell back to sleep! Such a sweet boy he is.

Of course, 10 minutes after I fell back to sleep he was up kicking me again. That's ok. This time I just went and got Daddy to take him downstairs to rock him for a while.

Next time he wakes overnight I am just going to enjoy the extra time with him rather than getting frustrated that I am missing out on precious sleep time. Our time together is precious too, no matter when it happens.

I want to go home and snuggle that soft, fuzzy head right now! Three hours to go.

Today is my Friday

And it's coming not a moment too soon. I swore I wasn't going to fill my blog with complaint after complaint. I am, afterall, trying to be a more positive person and journaling helps me do that. But I have been so frustrated lately! Aaaaaaaaaargh! Whew! It feels good to have gotten that out.

Going into detail won't help anyone so suffice it to say that if everyone would just take responsibility for their own work, the world (at least the work world) would be a better place!

Today's entry will have to be kept short so I can go clean up other people's screw ups.

And I'm off!

Wednesday, July 30, 2008


How much granola can one person eat? It's my new love. I've always loved granola bars and things like that, but now I have entered the world of real granola. It's been about two months and I don't think I've gone a day without honey vanilla organic granola on Stonyfield yogurt or Kashi Cocoa Beach straight up or rolled oats and almonds and raisins mixed in with my strawberries.

I've always been more on the crunchy side, but now friends who joke and call me "so granola" actually have a point!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

You Can't Go Back Again

You can't go back again. That's right. No matter how much you wish you could, dream about how you'd change this or that, think you could do so much better with a second chance... It's not going to happen.

And that's ok. Life is what it is! And it's good. No, it's great!

Live now. Live for what is here. Live for what is coming. What is yet to be. You can't go back again. You can't undo the past. But you can change your future.

More on this later...